I am a third year (starting fourth year in the fall) PhD student in mathematics. I've passed all qualifying exams and am currently doing research. As far as I can tell, I am not doing poorly. I have the good fortune of having a great advisor, being in a very supportive department, and having friends and family who genuinely care about my success.
The fact is research is hard. It appears to consist primarily of staring at a problem for days and days and days without getting anywhere. Sometimes, rarely, I do figure something out and that feels wonderful, but the overwhelming majority of my time appears to be spent banging my head against a mostly figurative wall. I am not complaining about the material being hard, and I am not averse to putting in hard work, but I get frequently discouraged when I realize the vast volumes of mathematics that I yet know nothing about (and probably never will). It's very hard to quantify progress - in particular, there are too few tangible returns after too many hours worked. I find myself thinking along the lines of "Oh, if only someone actually smart were thinking about this problem they would have solved it in moments" and so on.
I've talked about this to some number of people; here is some advice I have received:
- Take a day off. Putting in hours upon hours of trying things doesn't magically lead to a solution, particularly if the brain is tired and just wants to sleep.
- Have a hobby. Since math research doesn't exactly provide instant gratification, a hobby might provide some instead.
- Talk to other graduate students. Realize that many graduate students go through this.
I'm interested to know how other folks have dealt with being discouraged as a graduate student. Does it get better with time and experience? Is this a sign that research is not for me and that I should seriously consider a life outside academia?
If at any time you feel
- You are not understanding what supervisor is saying.
- You are not on the right path.
- Your colleagues are performing better than you.
- Only you don't understand a thing and lagging behind in deadlines.
- Your supervisor is not happy with your work.
- Your advisor is rude to you but you saw him laughing with another student.
- Your work seems easy but others' work is very impressive.
- You just want to quit.
- You can't quit because of social pressure.
- You just wanna go with flow.
Any symptoms like above mean you are doing PhD and almost every student get such mood swings any time. I almost gone through all but when I talked with my colleagues they were thinking exactly like me, some even saying my work is very nice and their work is easy etc... So don't worry just work and read.